my heart so hurt....pain....

my heart so hurt....

i duno hw 2 control

when said about him i keep crying..

heal..

duno y

everytime talk about him i oso felt sad n hurt

sometime will cry it out...

y had ppl like tht

TT

sad until cnt control

he somemore said me tht

put aeroplane

i oso dun mind

bt y like tht

every things he duno

keep hurt me

wat can i do

i cnt 4gt him

hw?

........

sad realy so sad

already many years cnt 4gt

i hate myself

i no hate him

coz b4 was my wrong

felt soli 2 him

u treat me tht

nvm

i will recover

when i go taiwan

gd bye

edi

TT

可恨的一天！！

昨天没什么睡觉然后今天又要很早起身去幫人家化妝

早上六點就要出發的

可是載我的人他遲到了所以就晚一點出發了

昨天和今天是我劃過最辛苦的新娘了因為那位客人的五官比較不對

眉毛也生的不一樣

眼睛也是

每個臉部靈魂都很不一樣

所以要修整

所以用的時間都要比普通的長

我

不開心的是

她并不是很容易劃的人

我的收費來說真的太便宜了

可是呢！！

我自己人又自己跟我打折

所以我的辛苦

沒人懂

因為他比不是一位五官生的很美的人

可是呢！

我劃她的費用

還要比普通人少

真不知道

我

怎么會

那樣

的

倒霉

讓自己人吃死死

為什么

他們就是不會公私分明

為什麼

真是的

算了

就那樣一次

不跟他計較了

不然又要給他說我不給他面子了

有點擔心

劃了她以后

會比較少人找我劃了

該怎樣辦呢？？

好恨噢！

跟她劃完后

回家

是時候

去考試了

哈哈

好慘

太多課沒上所以好多不會哦！

可是不用緊

又去就好了不想，想太多

因為真的是太累了

考完

一回到家

我馬上沖去房間睡覺了

過了不久

我媽來叫我出去吃

吃完才回來睡

當時的我

真的

只想睡覺不想吃

可是沒辦法

因為我五點還要去跟他化妝

所以一定要去吃

可是

去到那我眼睛還是睜不開

真的好累好累

一吃飽回家我就趕緊去睡覺了

家人都不在

所以我自己在家

我五點要出沒人可以叫我起身了所以我調了鬧鐘

就睡了

調四點零壹分的我

時間到了

可是我還睡不醒

到了四點半這樣吧！這時幸虧有豬大哥那多余的信息吵醒了我

才發現已經遲了

要趕快的準備好出門

假設沒他的信息我一定睡不醒了

謝咯！要不是你

我可要慘了

幫新娘劃好了我等了一下子我自己人才載我回

我回到家

放好東西我就出去載janice一起吃

我們去了mr.kaya

然后

看

沒東西吃

我們就跑掉咯

好好笑

我還是第一次這樣

然后我們就去bangi吃

沒想到在那邊遇到kevan,teck kian n km

他們不久就回了

我叫的東西好難吃哦所以吃兩口我就吃不下了

坐了一會

十點醬我媽打來說要去那位我幫他化妝的自己人家

所以我就趕回去咯

去那邊吃了點東西聊聊天

他們在喝酒

我在發呆

到了一點醬才回家

現在很晚了

累了

想睡了

已經三點二十分了

大家晚安了哦！！

cool..duno wat tht guy think..so scared..

OMG...hwhwhw???y the guy is tht???

yesterday i finish make up wit 1 customer,

than went bck home

had a fren..old skul fren..he study at pendamaran b4..

he called me out for many time edi..bt i din't out..

finally felt cant treat him like tht v oso was a gd fren b4..he so sayang me 1 so i cnt treat him so bad...

than i out wit him..

so weird lo..v din't go limteh..

b4 tht v went out oso went lim teh

bt he fetch me went jj

n saw him play ball..

u c..so weird..

felt bored thr bt duno wat can i do

so juz can stand thr n saw him play...

after tht

v wanna bck edi..he prepare 2 pay the parking ticket

wah..tht time jj were alot ppl thr..

all ppl line up so long..

so v din't line up..

he drove thr drove here

somemore said wanna go watch movie than tht already 11pm than i said u dun b crazy already late lo nobody will sale u ticket,bt he juz keep argue wit me..

than wait so long edi..v pass to lower part thr

oly paid tht ticket..

than on tht time i think yes finally i can go bck

bt unlucky was nt

he keep thinking whr v wan 2 go it

juz dun1 let me bck home

wah..i talk wit him until i felt scared

y had ppl like tht

me wanna bck edi

he still keep thinking whr v 1 2 go..

than he round 2 bbt2 flat thr n round bck

ur think he shit o nt??

than already late he somemore round 2 sentosa n told me whr he live..

n went until whr i duno too..

he somemore call me go sing k than he went e song thr

than i keep said u dun b crazy

my sound is important 2molo somemore wanna talk wit customer so cnt

somemore was late..

than he pass 2 7-eleven buy things n said wan celebrate wit me tht i will going taiwan next year

he said he 1 celebrate wit me early...

i said u dun crazy if i already noe the date sure i will tell u

dun worry still have time

so dun b crazy

bt

he dun1 heard wat i said

than he go 2 buy bt i dun1 4lo..

than he so shit lock me at car..

omg..tht time i think i wanna b crazy edi..

bt duno wat 2 do it..

aftertht i msg wit my fren soon ann i said all the things he so bad juz keep laughing thr

n said

i told u b4 dun out wit him u dun believe..

c..nw become tht edi..

u duno tht place whr u r..so i cnt help u too..

tht few min i felt if he realy dun let me bck than i realy duno hw edi..

so i won't out wit him anymore...

too scared.......

after tht v round 2 pandamaran n bayu tinggi

than he stop at RHB ISRAMIC BANK thr

he went atm

aftertht v juz sat at car

talk

bt

i

keep

saying

i'm

tired

2molo still wake up early

i realy felt sleepy

realy wanna bck

than wait him finised chat n ate

oly he fetch me bck..

reach home already half pass 12

so swt..

i already many day din't slept well

sick n tired..

thx someone..^^

he n mii...(ugly me many days din't slept well)

thx you tht day who bring me out yesterday nite...

thx u when i moody u bring me out n heard me said alot stupid headche things...^^

haha..i noe u moody too..bt u job things i duno so cnt settle wit u..paiseh..somemore wanna u heard me said alot..bt anywhr thx..^^..i'm ok nw..

yesterday he fetch me out v round around bukit tinggi bt no place 2 go so round to centro thr than he quiz 2 go neway..than i juz said u ok i ok..coz both of us realy no place 2 go...so as last v went thr 2 sing...until more than 1am oly bck home..was tired,bt happy..after tht saw janice msg me..i lazy type so direct called her..v chat about 1 n half hour..than all headche things oso said wit her abit so ok nw...haha..make her no nid 2 slep..paiseh o..haha..bt mood ok nw..thx urs...

2nd time go ktv wit him..felt so blur..coz b4 tht he always no dare sing in front me..tis can say he 1st time sing in front me n v 1st time sing 2gether..haha...he so shy...noe many years edi 1st sing wit me..^^

wat is best fren...wat is tht feeling..

tis few week i realy headche,cnt slep well..i so pekcek..hw the happened done wit us?y us became tht??izzit my problem??too small gas??i realy duno y..wit km..i duno y i changed 2 dun1 chat wit him no more wanna out wit him..juz coz he some atitude tht i din't like..n he never change it when v said tht..i hate it...i realy hate myself nw..y became tht??y all my fren like so far wit me??yen i duno she at whr coz she din't contact wit me anymore..qiqi n peggy same too..coz v les contact..all having bf so v coudn't like b4 every time 2gether n chit chat thr..sexy darling n lily..same..long time din't chat so nthings 2 chat edi..n somemore v din't study at same college...so will no more chat at all..chai hong already married so cnt find her..yoke kuen too..she already married so cnt find somemore she wanna do her homework many things wan 2 do so i cnt disturd her..ying din't study edi so i find her oso no use..she live at banting..so hw 2 meet up?when i said my feeling wit her,she juz will said dun think so much..skul things like tht..fren things oso..miko went bck taiwan less on9..so i less time 2 contact her..v all nt always on9 so cnt chat...janice..she had her own things 2 settle...eing..dun anythings she will hear..nobodt can i talk..others all duno my things..wat is tht felling nobody will noe it..moody...
my pig bro..think so much so make the problem more confuse so i duno nid hw..y all things became more confuse??y?y?y?i realy hate nw..
hope faster get the result faster settle all things...faster go oversea..like tht no nid think so much edi..wish all faster settle soon....

felt scarly...

wah..realy is a shit nite..
juz nw went 2 asoka lim teh wit wei hong them,coz he wanna invite me 2 hear somethings gd 4 us..bt..i'm soli..i'm nt have time nvm somemore i'm have the $..somemore tht $ nid use 4 my study so i cnt do it..soli..
after finish chatting wit them,i continue lim wit cai hong..wah..already more than half year no meet up,meet up i felt happy lo,,her daugther already big 1 year 5 month..is a Qtie gal look like her dad..same face wit her daD no like mum..haha..
after tht i lim wit wen yi(my bro) chat a while edi..i saw ah guy keep looking at me..the eye let me felt scared like b4 tht happen out again..realy so scared..i hate tis kind of ppl..i dun1 bck like b4 things happen 4 me..TT..useless..god..i realy scared of tis kind of guy..nt i nt like guy is i realy scared edi..
i scared the things happen 2 me again again..i cnt control myself nw realy scared..TT..juz nw i said wanna bck bt i saw janice them happy chatting thr so i du1 disturd i juz ask them can fetch my bck bt no1 answer me..nvm,i bck 2 sit..bt tht guy smile wit me again god i realy scared i no dare c him i keep turn 2 c other side..who noe my feel???nobody will noe it...nobody like me had tis kind of things b4...TTfeel wanna cry bt i cnt if i cry than means i lost i realy care about it..i cnt care about wat ppl looking n said i realy cnt care bt i cnt..TT..after thr i told my bro said if i nt bck later my dad will kill me..they dun let me bck until i told them had 1 guy keep looking at me..oly he call his fren fetch me bck 1st..i'm happy i'm b home..bt....
when i stay home i told my mum about the work things my mum n uncle them all keep saying bad i felt realy angry..y tht things i wanna do y they juz noe by own din care about me..realy angry n sad...
anywhr thank tht guy who fetch me bck...muack...
thx my bro too...
n my fren...
love urs...muackz~~~~
good nite everybody n sweet dream...^^

finally laptop done edi..^^

wah..so happy...coz finally my laptop came out hospital edi..^^..live thr until 2 week..

miko was go bck macau last sat...nw my life is so boring,coz miko was bck nobody will out wit me 2gether n chit chat thr..somemore nw juz let wei n mii at class,ying was dun1 study edi..everyday nid heard them said about stupid things walan..@#$$#@$%bored until xiao..

so i already no mood 2 studies edi..many days din go if got oso is half day thr..help..wish the result come out faster than i no nid worry alot edi..